Love

I dont know what im doing.. Really, i ask for freedom, i ask for a moment without love, without someone who i cant have, without this feeling, but i cant handle it, in the end im asking for him, im asking for his love, im begging for his attention and why?? Can i have a moment just for myself?? A moment to think just about me, to care about my health, my studies, my little things... But no. There is a guy, a guy who i love for 2 years and i dont know what i have to do. Help, please.